Life is hard.
I've been having a really difficult time lately. My knee is still "not right". I'm taking a product called Move Free and it is supposed to help me. I need to give it time. Old age is taking it's toll on me. I really feel my age lately. I feel blah...
I'm also very depressed for a number of reasons. Many things are out of my control. This is very hard for a woman who likes to "control" things. OUCH! But God is in control. I must believe this and rely on him for my happiness and my future. I cannot rely on anyone to make me happy. Maybe this season I am going through is just for that reason alone. To force me to my knees and give Him all my cares and woes. Let Him provide for me. He wants to and He cares for me. He wants to fill my cup to overflowing. Right now I need to feel His loving arms around me, reassuring me, and telling me that this too will pass and soon this season will be over.
I want to know what it is He wants from me during this time, what does He want me to learn, and what does He want me to change. I cannot change anyone. He can change people, if it's His will. He can help me to change too, if I ask.
I also need patience. A large does of that please. And a side of trust would be good too. So, Dear Lord, I need you not only to fill my cup, but fill my plate as well.
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him." Lamentations 3:22-24