Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I'm on a journey-come along!

You may have wondered about the name of my blog-Chaos Cottage. It comes from something I read on Flylady years ago. Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome. Yep, most the time that is the way I feel about my home. You know, please let us know days ahead of time if you are coming for a visit. Arghh...

I struggle with homemaking. I know, I probably shouldn't. I am a stay-at-home mom with 1 daughter who attends a Christian school. My husband is unemployed at the moment and is able to run many errands and take dd to and from school. I have the time and the ability to take extra special care of my family and my home. Excuses? I haven't any, really. Oh, sometimes I think I have the excuses of "I don't feel so well", or "I didn't sleep well", or "my back hurts", and my favorite, "I need a nap." These can all be true some days, but honestly, I have no good excuses most days.

Oh, I have really good intentions. I make plans. I am the queen of list making. It's something I find very relaxing. I always get my menu planning done on Sunday. I look forward to it really. Maybe it is because I love to eat. I don't know. I love looking at other ladies blogs and seeing how much they are accomplishing in their homes and reading their daily schedules. I ooh and aah over their accomplishments. I must admit I do get a little envious sometimes. Then I look at my home and I am sad. Having a list does help me some. But you have to look at it.

I think I know the real reason I always fall short. It is sin in my heart. Yep, I think it is selfishness and rebellion. I do what I WANT to do and housework ain't one of them. Sounds childish, doesn't it?

I am childish, but I am also a child of God. And as a child of God I am very blessed. I don't deserve all the things that the Lord has blessed me with, but He has blessed me just the same. So, I think it is time for confession for sure. But also doing a 180 and making the needed changes in my life to do the job the Lord has asked me to do. Be a wife and a mother. Count it all JOY. Do my work pleasingly as unto the Lord.

So, I'm going on a journey. I want to please the Lord and my family and give them the home they deserve. I hope that you'll stay with me on this journey. And I do ask for your prayers in this area my friends. It means so much to me to know that I have your support! I may even post a before and after photo here and there. That is, if I am not too ashamed to show you the before. Oy!

6 comments:

Marge said...

Whoa...BEFORE and after? That would really be brave. I don't know that I could do that.

Becky said...

Hey Pam, I really like this post! I will think of you when I am doing my own housework and pray. I have let things go at my house to some degree with being ill and trying to homeschool. Now that the boys are in public school I have 6 hours every day to work. I am in my 2nd week. There are days where I am productive and other days where I have to sit and veg. But I am thankful that the Lord has given me this time, it is a blessing.

Blessed Mama said...

(((((((((hugs)))))))))) to you my friend! I sooooo understand what you are going through. It seems I have my "good housekeeper and mommy" phases, and my bad. Right now I am in between. I know there is soooo much I can do, should do, want to do......but just don't do. I think blogging about your journey is a great idea. It will give you some accountability and could be a real blessing to others. You will be in my prayers dear.

Elise said...

Oh WOW, this is a great post & you have the most gorgeously beautiful site here. I had to stop by to leave this comment for you – and to say hello of course ! Your posts are creative and original and you have interesting pictures. It's all perfect ! Thank you for sharing your site and best wishes... Happy weekend....

Chaos Cottage said...

Thank you all you sweet, sweet ladies for your comments. I am getting nervous now about posting pictures. Oy!

Pam

Beth Mcgwire said...

Speakin' my language! Count it all joy- love hearing that. God won't let you rest so keep working on it, and keep resting in Him, while you are working as if for the Lord.